Being 22 and married for a few years, I get the question a lot when are we going to have kids? Of course Ryan being 29 I would like to expand our family sooner, rather than later, so we still have lots of energy to spend on a little one.
When we first got married I went through a baby-crazy period & after a few months of no baby I started back on my birth control. Then I went through my phase of absolutely hating children & wanting to be a rolling stone my whole life. I went back & forth on these feelings for the last 3 years of our marriage. Around our 3 anniversary I started wondering what it would be like to have children of our own now, even though we don't have a house & I'm currently job-less. I know if we did end up pregnant now we would get a lot of flack about the fact that we're "not ready" right now.
At a certain point you can't take to heart what people say, although it doesn't make it any easier to hear it. After the last year of not being able to make certain decisions on our own & being forced back into my parents, I want to do something I WANT. I keep waiting for our life to get back to normal before we try to have kids, but the longer I wait the more I wonder when we'll be ready, or what 'normal' even is?
Starting in March 2012 I've stopped taking my anxiety medicine (a success as of right now) & have started 'trying' for a little one. I doubt it has happened this month, since I'm so irregular, but I am already so excited for the chance to have a little piece of me & Ryan in a little person!
As far as our plans for the future, I'm wanting to find a cheap house to purchase near Ryan's Whole Foods, & eventually heading out west to the wonderful state of California! It might be a good ways in our future, but it's something to work towards!
On a lighter note, I purchased our bell pepper plants today & also got stuff to transfer our broccoli & cabbage seedlings! I walked both dogs today for a little exercise & Vitamin D in the beautiful sunshine!
"How does it feel to not have a home -- a complete unknown -- like a rolling stone..." -Bob Dylan
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